thanks for sharing this. I relate so deeply. I always felt like my other vices (cutting, being a black out drunk, pills) are more harmful than bingeing so why should I have to give it up? It's the one last thing I really allow myself to get lost in - and yes, I know too of its harms, the next day feelings, inflammation, pain, sadness, shame. It has been there when others haven't, or in the times when others have hurt me. I have also spent hours in therapy working on other coping mechanisms to replace it but havent found one as successful yet. So this really resonates, thanks 💕
thank you so dearly for this blog post and open sharing.
food is my cigarette too, or oftentimes a harder, more dissociative drug, and binging has been a blessing and (mostly feels like) a curse for many years now.
I also feel overwhelmed easily by being a human in society, and I’m working on reframing this coping mechanism, which is so stigmatised and shrouded in shame, meanwhile other vices are romanticised or glorified.
it has brought such intense physical and psychological suffering, and I also see that my deeper / subconscious being developed a way to cope in a situation that felt unliveable. It originated in self-love.
I relate so much to the binge hangover inflammation, the headache / sore throat / general drop in immune system that seems to come with it, the heart palpitations, shortness of breath…
And yet, more recently i’ve been leaning into how beautiful it also is that mother Earth / Life provides such love and comfort and reassurance through the form of food.
I hope we can let the comfort in and embrace the release that we deserve.
Thank you so much for sharing Kenzie, I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a hard time, I hope things get easier soon. You write so beautifully and vulnerably, you’re very inspirational.
Have you come across the work of Chris van Tulleken? He suggests ultra processed food is addictive (and almost unavoidable), I wonder if it would help you feel more compassion for yourself? I’m sorry if that’s not helpful. xxxx
I always say everyone has an Achilles heel, mine is bingeing but I have to wear the result of mine and that’s what is looked down upon ☹️
thanks for sharing this. I relate so deeply. I always felt like my other vices (cutting, being a black out drunk, pills) are more harmful than bingeing so why should I have to give it up? It's the one last thing I really allow myself to get lost in - and yes, I know too of its harms, the next day feelings, inflammation, pain, sadness, shame. It has been there when others haven't, or in the times when others have hurt me. I have also spent hours in therapy working on other coping mechanisms to replace it but havent found one as successful yet. So this really resonates, thanks 💕
thank you so dearly for this blog post and open sharing.
food is my cigarette too, or oftentimes a harder, more dissociative drug, and binging has been a blessing and (mostly feels like) a curse for many years now.
I also feel overwhelmed easily by being a human in society, and I’m working on reframing this coping mechanism, which is so stigmatised and shrouded in shame, meanwhile other vices are romanticised or glorified.
it has brought such intense physical and psychological suffering, and I also see that my deeper / subconscious being developed a way to cope in a situation that felt unliveable. It originated in self-love.
I relate so much to the binge hangover inflammation, the headache / sore throat / general drop in immune system that seems to come with it, the heart palpitations, shortness of breath…
And yet, more recently i’ve been leaning into how beautiful it also is that mother Earth / Life provides such love and comfort and reassurance through the form of food.
I hope we can let the comfort in and embrace the release that we deserve.
so much love <3
thank you so much for sharing <3
I relate so deeply to this. Thank you for your bravery in sharing this.
Thank you for reading and sharing, Lisa <3
Thank you so much for sharing Kenzie, I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a hard time, I hope things get easier soon. You write so beautifully and vulnerably, you’re very inspirational.
Have you come across the work of Chris van Tulleken? He suggests ultra processed food is addictive (and almost unavoidable), I wonder if it would help you feel more compassion for yourself? I’m sorry if that’s not helpful. xxxx